I am not always lonely, but I guess it is just because my daughter just left and the holidays are coming up. What really scares me is that I thought I would feel more devastated when the word "D" came up. All I feel is a little sad to think he can throw away 23 years just like it never meant anything. He and ow are still "just friends" and have not started to live together. That would be the best thing for both of them because she is bipolar and he is demanding so it would be over as soon as it started. As long as it is just an EA, he may stay in the fog of thinking how great she is forever. Oh well, there is nothing I can do about that.
Since I am laid off right now I am doing lots of bible study and I find I look forward to it each day. I also decided to re-read the whole bible again and it still amazes me about all the rules that God gave his people and how little people would obey them today.
I have not been too lonely today as the bill collectors have once again started calling for H. He and his daughter told me they got caught up with the payments, but that can't be true as they started calling me yesterday. I have told them he doesn't live here but since it is the only # they have, they are persistent in calling. At least I know I need to move quickly on the house before they try to attach his debt to it and I could loose that too.
I missed not being here will try to get caught up asap with everyone.
