I would love for you to open a thread about what your H has told you as he comes out of this crisis. If, that is, you are so obliged to share. For instance, can you elaborate on him coming closer, then running? Did he tell you why this happened; what his thoughts were? I think I may have experienced something like this about a week ago; my H has been in crisis for a good 18 mo. now. Would love to hear more, as I'm sure others would, too. Thank you.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.