Not sure if I am officially piecing yet....

[want2bmarried]

Well, I am still angry but starting to get really down. I am so lonely. How do you love someone so much and hate them for what they do at the same time? He is probably the cruelest person I have ever met. No regard for anyones feelings but his own. I wrote alot in my journal this afternoon.
I set some short term goals. I would do longer ones, but I really don't feel like I can right now. Some are stalkerish, but I am getting really bad and obcessive about it and it does me no good.
Short term goals:

-No calling or texting.
-If/when he calls or texts I will not buy into his crap of lies.
-No drive by's (that is the hard one as he does live close and its so easy to check to see if he is home)
-No sex. He doesn't deserve it without commitment.
-Look at my future without him in a good way. More opporunity, less drama
-Look at the potential single men that I can maybe someday date. This one I need when I feel hopeless and that I will be eternally single and alone.

Sorry for venting again. Thanks for the help.