I just caught up reading your thread. Stepping back and reading through the last 2-3 weeks worth of posts, the 1st thing I notice is progress. I mean real progress. In one of your earlier posts, you compared the progress moving at glacial pace. Well, whether you know it or not, your progress over the last 2-3 weeks has been astronomical in comparison. You have taken BIG baby steps. I know things are not where you want them right now, but I definitely see it headed that way for you. Like you, my biggest stumbling block is the emotional intimacy and connection which I believe will be followed by the physical intimacy. I have been trying to give more of myself and express my feelings about things that do not involve an obligation by W. I told her how I felt like a failure and coward by declining a request to give a eulogy at one of my good friend's funeral a few years ago. She listened to what I was saying. Slowlee I want to evolve into us once I feel its "safe". I am going to see a C next week to start working on expressing my thoughts and feelings more openly. Sounds like you are on the verge of breaking the "ice" into emotional intimacy and soul connection. Keep up the good work and keep us posted on our progress. It gives us all here encouragement, hope and inspiration.
