Afraid, thanks for your comments. I suppose the wondering will be with us for a long time. WAH is here now, but out in the garage working on the truck with older S. I'm making pretzels with other S.
It's hard to feel up-beat though. I know my stich is much better than others for the timeframe, but I just want him to at least know how hard it is for me, everytime I know he is heading up north by himself. The mind just can't help wondering if he's telling me the truth, or what he'll do. It's not like he's given me any indication that it's over with OW either, those are just my feelings sometimes based on what I observe/see. H's first W cheated on him, so hopefully he remembers how much it hurts, but I can't count on that. I replied way to much on that already, thinking he'd never cheat on me because of what he'd gone through with his first W. Boy, was I naive.
I'll probably end up saying something, as this is bothering me too much, and I swore I wouldn't bottle up my feelings anymore from H. I'll say somethat about it, and leave it at that. I'll just have to deal with the consequences. I'm going to go have a glass of wine now. Thanks for listening.
Need2Believe
Me: 45 H: 49 Married - 21 years SD from H 1st M - 30 S - 14 S - 11 Asked for D - 8/14/06 Found out about OW - 8/30/06 Moved out 10/14/06 Moved back in 4/1/07
