I woke up this morning realizing that a part of me is dying. I'm not sure I love my H enough anymore to keep trying. I know I will though, but I just don't see us ever being the same. I need more from H than he can give me right now. Maybe it's just my negative side coming out - but it's so hard to act like you don't care that he might meet up with OW when I do care. I know "I" need to tell him how I feel, yet I know I shouldn't be doing this.

Got to get son to school and get to work.

Need2Believe

Me: 45
H: 49
Married - 21 years
SD from H 1st M - 30
S - 14
S - 11
Asked for D - 8/14/06
Found out about OW - 8/30/06
Moved out 10/14/06
Moved back in 4/1/07