Need advice

[want2believe]

Happy New Year All!

Just a quick update hopefully.

I did call WAH at 2:00a.m. to confirm S was staying overnight with him. I believe I woke him up. It was a quick conversation. I probably shouldn't have called, but I get tired of him not telling me things like this, and I wanted to make sure my S was OK.

Next morning I called to see when WAH would bring S home as I needed to run some errands. We talked about working out together that morning. WAH said he'd be over in an hour. After 2 hours, no show, so I worked out by myself. WAH showed up with S after I was done working out, and about to take a shower. Just dropped of S, and took off. No conversation. His choice - I took my shower and left to run my errands. Later he called about something for the business. He said S had started a download that took over an hour, and that he'd had brought clothes for working out, but my other S said I was taking a shower. It apparently didn't
want to be around me today though, if he couldn't even say a
quick "hi".

I also checked and he had another e-mail for OW. It was
friendly, sort of like she'd like to hear from him more, but hasn't so keeping was keeping it short and casual. WAH doesn't seemed to have responded to OW last e-mail. Good for me!

Woke up a little depressed New Years Eve, as WAH still hadn't said anything about today. About 1pm., WAH calls and asks me what we're doing tonight. I told him, that since I hadn't heard from him, I'd made plans to go to the neighbors with the boys. He said that was OK. He came over, and we ran to a couple of stores. He'd talk about getting things for the house, like he hadn't moved out. It was just talk at this point though. We had a nice evening. WAH stayed over again.

It's weird, I can tell WAH wants to be with me, yet after we
spend some time together, I can see him thinking, and he usually then takes off shortly afterwards. Typical MLC symptom from what I've read, but it is confusing.

WAH has said he likes it when I act like I want to be with him, and I can tell he does. It's hard though when I want to be with him, and I try to show it, but he acts detached. I can't make him want to be with me, that has to be his choice. If it's obvious, I just say "OK", and go about my business and leave WAH alone. I sometimes wonder if I should just give up, and quite trying to show him I want to be with him unless he initiates it. It's just that I know it works a lot
of the time though, and he hasn't seen OW for over 3 weeks, nor has he called/talked to her much, based on the couple of e-mails I saw.

Haven't heard from WAH since News Years Day. I decided to give him time and not call or send IM until I really have
to.
He's suppose to bring back the printer soone, but I may just
tell him to keep it, and I'll go buy a new one for the house. I know he thought about buying a new one, but decided not (I don't think he wanted to spend the money on a new one). I just don't know how much independence I should show him, but I want him to know I don't need him to survive either, and I won't wait around forever for him to get some things to get done, like I have in the past. But then again, I feel like I'm caving in to WAH, by just letting him have what ever he wants when he wants it. He's still very much into himself. I know he wants to feel appreciated, but damn it, I'm basically a single mother right now, and in many aspects, have been for years. When do I get some acknowledgement from
him for what I do? When will our S's be important enough for him to take the time to say "Hi" or "Bye" to when he comes and goes. Right now, he doesn't even think about doing this the majority of the time. They aren't even aware sometimes that he came and/or left.
I know this is part of the MLC symptoms, but it sucks! I'll deal with it, but it helps to vent sometimes.

So much for a quick update! Time to get back to work.