Guess it's time for a little rant. I haven't done one for a while, but I have to vent somewhere, and there is no other place.
There could be a big story here, but I'll try to keep it short. I'd like some input, please. I joined a tennis league at W's tennis club. I'm in the junior of junior division, while W has been and is always in contention to be club champion. BIG 180 for me (long time coming) to do this. I'm not really social. Anyway, I played my first two league matches today, won both 12-1, 12-1. Made me feel good. I blew the second one away in 35 minutes (1.5 hours allowed). W was coming off another court having won a match she was playing. She came up to me and asked if we couldnt' play some more with my opponent, maybe doubles. She said it was a shame to have my opponent have to leave so soon and not get to play some more. "We get can get OM to play, he's just coming off this other court." Of course, I at least got a face on, and W thought I just didn't want to play. She didnt' seem to even get that it was the OM thing. So I agreed and we played...
So, according to the "RULES", she's supposed to have no contact. And we all know she does. But why does she seem to feel she had to drag me into this contact, why do I have to socialize with this jackass? A party with lots of people around is one thing, but a "friendly" game among 4 people??? ARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHH!
She doesn't seem to see that it's insulting and painful to have to be nice and cordial to this guy. She doesn't seem to understand that in all my life, I've never met anyone whom I consider to be more an enemy.... more a threat to my home, family, security, and general well being than this jerk is/was. And, of course, I can't really express that to her. It's so aggreivating.
I suppose this is part of the price I pay by detaching from some of the drama and not 'insisting' she cut off all contact. I don't want to deal with that resentment, that "withdrawal" so I don't... and I allow it to run it's course. I plan at some point to express that although I see contact as "none of my business" (as mentioned in earlier posts), I do feel that I'm still entitled to an opinion and preferrence in the matter. It appears that my expression of that preference will have to come sooner than later.
I guess the only good thing was that when he was playing opposite, I got to wind up with a couple of really hard played backhands aimed right at his head. Fortuantely for everyone my aim is lousy, but I got to do it any way. Makes me feel better to know that if I knock him out with a tennis ball hit down hit throat it will be viewed as agressive play, not as jealous retribution. That, at least makes me smile
I know this is so far out of the box that I'm probably in uncharted territory again, but anyone got any thoughts or suggestions??? Really, other than infrequent things like this, things are going along quite well, and we are getting along. Sometimes I let this kind of thing get to me, and mostly no one else knows. It's nice to come here and vent, tho...
