Back at the beginning of our C sessions, the C was concerned that we were Not taking a hiatus from intimacy. My private opinion on that was that if we could go there then it was a connection of some sort.
Time has passed. We're at the ideal spot to employ that hiatus. My ego is bottomed out and I'm not as emotionally fused to Sage. I understand self-soothing.If I were to initiate, his body would respond. Yet I can back off and give him space. If he suggests intimacy I won't deny him just because of my ego. I can wait though.
It's a good time to just enjoy the minutes together. The emotionally present sentences that will string into paragraphs. It's an opportunity to go places and maybe touch/hold hands if it feels right and not just because we're expected to do so.
Sage and I didn't date enough. We met on a blind date and were engaged 8 days later. He shipped out and when he returned we had 4 more dates, all w Spanish family around us. We married 1 year after the date we met.
