Hey Santhony thanks for stopping by. She called a couple of times while she was gone and of course I got my hopes up. I actually did like you said this morning but she said she is strong enough and wants to go. I think she feels she should get on with it. I said listen I feel like I have been pressuring you too much why don't we finish some more IC and we will see if we want to persue it later. She said she will be in therapy for years. Wow. Then she told me she told her mother and sister about it which just made it that much more real to me.... I kept it together and then went for a walk with my dog. I ended up outside of church listening to mass (had my dog so couldn't go in). When mass was over, I had been praying outside for guidance, I wandered around the crowd and ended up talking to a woman and then I broke down. She pulled me aside to talk. Turns out she is a T and one with faith. I told her what was happening and she said... sounds like your wife is having a MLC!!! The other Ts always look at me bland when I say that. Anyway she helped me immensly and prayed with me and helped me understand what stage of grief I am in and many other things.
My father has been very ill the last 6 months and faith prayers and family is what got him through. My sister and I were talking on the phone right before I met this woman about that.
If you believe, believe more, God is out there and all around you. I wish my W had faith because it must be very empty without it.
I will be attending a small faith group there next Sunday.
