Wow. I don't know how to thank you all. Sherman33 Lissett Stoic on the surface, mommyhurting and anyone else I missed. I am assuming that the S in santhony is for Saint, because you are. I am a spiritual guy, especially lately, and often fall asleep asking Jesus for strength.
What about in MC that is the only place I show real emotion in front of her... I sort of thought that would be the place... should I keep it together there too?
Amazingly things in other areas have started to take off I think I was stuck a little too and this unwanted journey has much to offer in the GAl arena. There is a sort of freedom to do what ever I want. I had some real fun today with a bunch of women at one of my appointments had em all laughing. It felt so nice to be getting some female love. If any of them were to come on to me it would be hard to say no and I do find myself "keeping an eye out." I guess thats normal.
I think I did some really good detaching last night and this morning. I went out with some friends (God do I love friends these days) came home went to bed. She came home about an hour later I stayed 'asleep'. This morning I was all cheery got dressed early in my "hot" suit and she was like wow you look good where are you going. Told her I had two big appointments and left the room first. Then when she was about to leave I said ok have a great Thanksgiving and give my love to everyone... gave her a peck and went upstairs... From downstairs she said ok.... bye. I said very cheery... bye. and left it at that... didn't tell her to be careful drive careful give her a hug etc. This was pretty different behavior for me.
I then had one of the best days in a long time. Went out for lunch to a place she never wants to go to. I think I will buy myself a nice dinner tonight as
well. What the hell. I am gonna enjoy my time away from her depression.
Thanks for FIB and Stoics threads FIB's was very inspiring.
