Overall good, very good, my H still very helpfull as he's never been before, it feels good to be near him, other than his constant playing his new PSgame he has been great. Was taking a bit of a break from the boards, I was telling inpain that sometimes some stories hit too close to home and something stirrs within me when reading about As, but over all I'm pretty much free from the A crap, that monkeys is almost completly off my back.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Hey no prob I thought about you and root often over the holidays. You don't realize it but you two have kept me going over some rough waters a time or two
You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means. -- Inigo Montoya, 'The Princess Bride'
Hey Cat great to see things are going well with you! Also, it's soooo encouraging to read that the monkey is almost off your back. Unfortunately, it does take time, but time can be an amazing healer.
TL, how sweet of you to think of us on the board over the holidays! Even when I'm not here I think of you guys too. Just knowing we're all in the same boat, going through similar feelings and thoughts, and sifting through difficult stuff while working towards growing into stronger and better individuals is really comforting and reassuring.
Whenever I think, am I crazy for trying to do this? I think about you guys (and my kids) and I know it's worthwhile. I'm not alone and there are good reasons for doing this regardless of where the future leads.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
it is, nowhere else have I spill the whole enchilada as I have here, I've bared my soul and the worst that's every happen to me and in turn I've gotten such great advice and support I also thanks heavens for you guys. This has indeed been a rough ride, but we've come out winning and I wouldn't want to be back to the way things were before for anything in this world.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Glad to hear the monkey's mostly off your back. Sometimes I think mine is gone and then bam, it's back.
I know just what you mean about taking a break from these boards. When I first came here I wished there were people who kept their M together to give advice. Now I understand that as you move forward sometimes it just hurts too much to remember where you've been.
SuperStressed
P.S. I'll start a new thread and post an update soon. I promise.
where you've been girl? I was looking of you, hope all is well.
Quote: Sometimes I think mine is gone and then bam, it's back.
Yea, same day I posted that reply I went -stupdly - to ow's myspace site, and got to see more picts and here came the comparisons, ish! Well, I will TRY not to go there anymore, want to forget that face. I might not have the same cup size but at least I dont post a pict of myself w/my nipples showing, jeez, what a ho!
ANYWAYYYYYYYS, looking forward to an update, all is well in my side of the planet, I try to count my blessings everymorning and remember that I should be happy my H is w/me, that I could be among countless of our other friends on the other boards who hurt every day because their S is away.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Sometimes I think mine is gone and then bam, it's back.
This is soooo true. I thought that I've accepted the A and moved on. I've always thought that the sex that they had didn't bother me, it was the emotions that was the difficult one. Then out of the blue, I had visions of H having sex with her..and I almost died. It was most painful to have such visions. Had to forced myself to STOP thinking about them. Shucks!! It was horrible.
But as most have said, time will heal us...and indeed it has. Although memories still crop up, and still hurt me, the duration does not last as long as before. As I look back to those horrible times when my spouse was an ALIEN specimen, it seems like I've had a nightmare and I've just woken up. And all those bad things didn't happen at all. But of course it did...just have to put it all behind me and move forward. And I think all of us on this BB is doing that too...
And Cat03 - YES!! You have to stop going to the ow's MySpace site. It will do you NO good whatsoever. Forget that she existed. She's not worth your surfing time.
