Hey Cat great to see things are going well with you! Also, it's soooo encouraging to read that the monkey is almost off your back. Unfortunately, it does take time, but time can be an amazing healer.
TL, how sweet of you to think of us on the board over the holidays! Even when I'm not here I think of you guys too. Just knowing we're all in the same boat, going through similar feelings and thoughts, and sifting through difficult stuff while working towards growing into stronger and better individuals is really comforting and reassuring.
Whenever I think, am I crazy for trying to do this? I think about you guys (and my kids) and I know it's worthwhile. I'm not alone and there are good reasons for doing this regardless of where the future leads.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.