Well, the first atty meeting is Thursday, with no indications that there will be any turning back. I crawled into bed with her for a minute last night and though she was laughing about it, she still said she disconnected from me two years ago and never re-connected. Everything is still all my fault. She also said something weird: she said "there is no upside" for her to get back with me. Hmmm. I guess she thinks the risk of me going back to the behaviors she didn't like (over two years ago) is higher than the risk to the kids and our finances due to the D. At least she's consistent: she never forgave me for anything she didn't like, and is still saying she thinks I am constantly out to screw her over in the D. It has gotten to the point where we can't discuss any terms because she ends up screaming at me. She imagines I am out to get her and acts accordingly. Just bringing up the fact I had started compiling a list of household items to help us split them up caused a three hour tirade. She literally followed me from room to room yelling at me. I still haven't shown her the list and I'm not sure I will. I don't know how we are going to do a collaborative D when she thinks I trying to rip her off and she still has so much anger. I'm the one who is about to lose my family, my house, half my estate and large portions of my income and she's mad! I'm hoping the attys will cause her to mellow out so we can get to it. No matter what I do, I'll be perceived as screwing her, so I have nothing to lose at this point.
This sucks.
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