Suddenly, a small ray of hope

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At this point it's not my problem any more. I've helped her with so much in her life and I get no credit and no reward, just a D. She's had a great life but thinks it was with the wrong husband. The thing she missed is it was great because I was her husband. The level of perfection she insists on no person will ever be able to attain. But by the time she figures out I was actually pretty good (and good for her) the damage will be done.

I'm sad today, W started her job today (that didn't make me sad, I'm happy for her). I'm sad because the lady driving the boys to school started this morning. It felt like another step in W changing her life to not have me in it (which she is). The only thing left for me to do this month is find a new place to live, which is both exciting and devastating. I never thought in a million years I would not be with my kids every day. This is the worst.

Gotta start making calls this week for an abode. W suggested I live with my parents to save cash, but I can't do it, I need to start my new life alone. I talked to my mom this morning she mentioned a house for rent near them, but said she knew I didn't want to do that: I want to be near my kids. True.

Also, I will be going to the divorce class at church tonight. Have to move my registration back from the marriage class I moved it to last week. Such fun.

So, bottom line, I will be out of my house in only a few weeks. We are already talking about what furniture I get. D14 was not liking us talking about it but, hey, it's reality.