Thank you so much! I don't know about class but I can say that life ,at my age, does still so surprise me! I cannot believe at times what is happening. At times I wake in the morning and think.." is this really happening?" I never would have thought that I would have a man friend 15 years younger, who is popular and attractive ,and we have such a great time together, laughing,walking and just chilling. The walking too has been a revelation to me It got me soooo fit and my body in such good shape that I am amazed.
I love the group I am with for walking.. could not find a better ,kinder ,funnier group!
I met three in the supermarket today.. We had a laugh and have agreed to meet up socially even more that we do. From being a shy and socially a bit reclusive and inept, I have been forced to be sociable to survive, and find I love it ,and have found a niche! I started the party scene in the group that is now self perpetuating. Another thing I would not ever have done before. H used to just want to stay in of an evening. So I went along.
The theory was, all those years,I was the quiet shy one.. a bit socially phobic.. but hey, now I am not.. So what does that say for our relationship all these years? It clouded my identity.. I compromised too much! H did not help me out.. He let me be ,and colluded.. added in many ways to my lack of confidence.. by being the socially more confident... but not doing anything.
I know talking to friends, coming here.. was an intense learning experience for me.. a life saver and a revelation in so many ways.. I just feel that how we present reflects how we are seen. I have tried to be dignified and self respecting.. not bitter and vindictive.. I practiced holding my head high.. both physically and metaphorically! I knew I had nothing to feel shame about...
So I let the world know by my attitude.. I found that it helps so much. That and the smile at all times, " as if " for so long.. Then true and natural in time! So I find folk reflect that back ,and I am respected and told so by my friends, who have seen a transformation... for the good ,and are soo pleased for me in their loving and generous hearts!
That is my message if any is..
Practice being who you aspire to be.. and in time you will get there.. Do not give up at the bad times, they are only a test.. Cope and the better times will come! Believe that all is possible.. and things you may not ever dream of can happen in time.
Patience is a thing I am very short of for myself.. But I am now trying to practice this. I disasterise too soon.. I must give more time, for usually I suffer a hundred horrors in anticipation,that do not come to pass, for the one or two that do!! My main credo is..
" Do no hurt, but do all the help and good that you can, in your journey along the dark path." Very do-gooderish..you may say.. but I would rather be a do-gooder than a not carer or a harmer. Have faith in yourself and your true beliefs,whatever they be.. Keep the faith.
