Drive carefully and keep safe. Sleeping in that bed can't be easy!
Yes, my journey has been harder in some ways, but easier in others, like happily living alone because I had been used to it before. The hard bit is about retaining optimism for other relationships I think.
I do feel more ready than I have ever been though, and am enjoying getting dressed up and going out feeling good and relishing the odd bit of flirting.
You and R have it right I feel. Shared interests, fun and mutual caring, without being too heavy. Sounds just right to me! As Snodderley says, enjoy, enjoy.
Lots of love
Jayxxxx
PS You have said a couple of times you thought you were in MLC. I think it's just that you have been in a sort of transition, that's all. You are now an individual for the first time in nearly 40 years and it's heady stuff. And rejuvenating.
That's how it was for me when I was in my late 30s, and what I meant about it not being as heady an experience this time around because I had been through that metamorphosis then. Although I did have a similar but less strong experience after R dropped the bomb. Even though I was distraught, I was no longer wife and stepmother but ME again.
I recently posted a quote to LR which bears repeating here:
"What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly" (Richard Bach)
That's what you are doing, spreading those glorious wings you never knew you had!
Jxxxx
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers
