I must confess, my happiness is very adolescent at times! The wildness of nature, and the physical challenge of the walk, tend to make me skittish ,and with a few other like minded souls we do laugh and joke and fall about the hills in mild hysteria at times. I am sure I am in my own form of MLC! Such childish reactions at times. But that also good as life seems more real, due to pain been through ,and relief when some happiness comes. But at least I hurt no-one by it, rather we do cause a bit of amusement NG and I are clear we have suffered from past painful R issues, so we now have a very warm,caring but non-serious R ,based on our mutual love of walking and mad sense of humour. This does not make it easy but at least we know where we are. We help each other along the path of self esteem and confidence. I can imagine it is harder for you, some steps and R's along the way.Not easy!
I am sure you will,some day soon meet a really amazing guy who will truely value you.But it will be up to you whether you take that way or not.
We will see!!!
Up really early tomorrow, to Tribunal about 2 or so, hour's journey, then into England and In Laws! It is hard for me,sleeping in the bed H and OW use on the rare occasions they stay over. In laws are very caring if obviously partial. But M in Law and S in law very happy to see me. I will try to have as good a time as I can.
