Welcome to your new thread. As usual, being honest about the down side of what's happened yet triumphant finding the silver lining of the MLC cloud!
Are you a Bronte fan? Your descriptions and the title of your thread take me back to a paper I did on "Wuthering Heights" long ago about Cathy and her connection to the heath and wild moors -- how it fit her true persona, how she thrived there, but faded once moved to the Linton house (and even in death the heath grew over and claimed her grave site). (See what happens when you deny your true self, hmm . . ..)