Thanx for your replies. and sorry that I have not posted in soooo long. The events of the past few weeks have been very interesting, to say the least. Everything is 180'd now. the things she says to me are exactly words I used with her before. I even gave her my DR book !!! I gave it to her so that she would leave me alone, bcoz that is the first lesson; stop persuing. I saw the remorse. She has literally BEGGED me to take her back. We've had sex...LOTS of it, and better than ever b4, but I seriosly don't want her back any more. and I swear it's not bcoz of another woman. It's bcoz I finally got fed up and realized that she was not what I needed and how much things were bringing me down, even b4 the crap started. She was making baby steps toward reconcilliation,but remember, no remorce, only demands on her part,and telling me how she wasn't gonna do this and that....until she found out I was talking to other women. Then all hell broke loose and she got mad and wanted a divorce. Then she went into " I cant live w/o you mode". She has been waiting at the gate for me when I got off work, came to the house and wouldn't leave, begged me to have sex with her, you name it. Would not give me the respect and distance I gave her. I went to councilling and got my head straight about this. I asked her for a divorce. I've made up my mind and I'm sticking to it.(got the book, corri) I may regret it one day, but that is the chance I'll take and live with the conciquinces. I did try for a bit to work it out, and as soon as I agreed to, I regretted it. I came to realize that I was only doing this out of guilt. Guilt for having tried so hard to get her back and then change my mind about the time she changed hers...but... you have to remember that she only changed hers when she found out that I wasnt gonna be there waiting for her. " we only want what we cant have". I know that as soon as things went back to normal......things would "go back to normal". I can only imagine all the hate responses to this action, but I said all along that I couldn't have done this as long as some of you have. More power to you and I hope you get what you want. I finally realized that that was not what I needed anymore.I actually like being single now. I guess she should never have given me the opportunity to find that out. And, it has NOTHING to do with any other women. It's more to do with what I will never accept again. When I look back on the past events, I am embarracedat how weak I was and what I was willing to accept. OK, bring on the responses. let me say this again..The DB stuff DOES work !
