CAUTION!! DRAMA APPROACHING RAPIDLY ! LOL I was logged on yesterday afternoon, and about to write an update post when she called me. I didn't answer the phone. I waited a few minutes to call her back and told her I saw that I had missed her call. We talked for about an hour and 15 minutes !!! VERY deep conversation. ended with her crying and me keeping my calm.
Seems she thought that her not sleeping with OM would be enough to allow us to start slow, as friends, and build on that. I told her that I agree, but WILL NOT put forth the effort with him in her life in ANY way. She said that alot of what drives her to stay in contact with him is guilt on her part for being partially responsible for his sitch. I did tell her that I will have no problem dating now. I had done exactly what I said I'd do. Now I have a clear concience to proceed with my life. I did tell her that she shouldn't be confused, that I do love her very much. She said, "I always believed that, but you are about to make some huge changes that'll make it hard for me to believe anymore.". I said " really? then why would I believe you when you say you love me? STUMPED HER ! She says the fog is starting to clear, and that the therapy is helping. I told that I was glad, and that I could tell a difference, and she needs to continue working on herself. I will continue working on improving myself. like I said. the talk was long. Lots of drama. She keeps saying that she feels like she doesn't deserve me. thats a product of her abuse. I know she's having it rough, but I also know that my pandering to her every wish will get me stepped on alot. It actually feels pretty damned good to have her persuing me for a change. I really wish I had a transcript for the whole conversation.
