Okey Dokey, here's the update: I went to the gym. W called while I was there (from my home phone) and I didn't answer. I came home when I got through. We just hung out a little. I got a shower and got ready to go to work. She asked me if I was avoiding her. Told her no. We looked through a book about butterflies to get some ideas for a tattoo that she wants me to design for her. She wanted me to help her put her belly button ring in, I did that. What a pain in the azz ! She kept saying that I acted as if things were awkward. She was picking at me about the weekend, and mentioned something about maybe I had sex with someone. I told her that I had a lot of fun, but I didn't get to have THAT much fun. she huffed " well you act like you wanted to" I replied with " wellYEAH!" ( like DUH!) I'm a man, I've got needs. She says I could use my hands ! (I'm gonna get kicked off the board for this !) Told her I was tired of using my hands. I said she should try using hers. See the thing that makes this funny and relevant is that she had told me a cpl of wks ago that they were friends who filled each others needs.
I had asked her about the wedding rings and she said she had been wearing them. I said I'll bet ya didn't wear them Saturday night! she said she did. TORO CACA!
Anyway, we go to leave. her on her way back to her apt. and me to work.The conversation went like this. ME (M): Seeya, I'm gone. Her (H): Wait a minute, don't run off. M:whats up? H: Why are you acting so awkward around me? I came over becouse I wanted to see you. i was here all weekend becouse I missed you. I wanted to talk. M: What did you want to talk about? H: I just wanted to be with you. (she had mentioned earlier that I should call in and spend the evening with her.)What's wrong ?? M: Look, don't you remember what we talked about Sunday? I told you that if you're involved with him, I don't want to be involved with you. H: yeah, but it's not in that capacity. M: (calm cool and collective, direct) Well, even if it's just as friends and you're just talking, I don't want to be involved with you. H: (head down, sad and walking to her car) oh, ok.
Well, I had no problem with this. Didn't feel bad at all, felt very good actually. About 15 mintes later I recieved this text message:
"It hurts and I guess I deserve it, but all I was trying to do was reach out to you.Try to rebuild our friendship, then go from there. Guess it's too late. Nite. " I never did reply or call her back.
