I barely snoop anymore. For some reason I checked his cell this a.m. after he'd gotten home from work and there it was - another call to the OW. They aren't 10 a day anymore, not even daily, perhaps 1 every 10 days or so. But why does he do it? He could sense I was upset when he tried hugging me this morning, and I told him I saw the call. He tried to reassure me it meant nothing, but it stings like anything. If not for me knowing about these calls (who knows what their contact is like at work), I would say our marriage is great. Not great like pre-bomb when I was in denial, but truly great. So why does he still need her? I really feel like introducing myself to her and her family and telling her off. Of course, I am too chicken. I want him to feel like I do. So immature, I know, but I wish someone else was pining away for me and he could feel his marriage threatened. I wonder if he'd fight for me or get back together with OW? I feel pretty low right now.
H 40
Me 40
married 15 years
5 children aged 2-11
Bomb 2-6-05
Now we are piecing, I think