Inherjourney,

Yeah, I don't normally post on the weekends either, but went to neighbors saturday night w/baby monitor & then had MIL sit w/child while I came to work yesterday afternoon.

Thank you soooo much for your encouragement

Now for journaling...

WAH-MLCer actually answered the phone when I called inquiring if he was still coming to pick child up (unlike last Friday) & apologized for being late as well as telling me why he was late.

When I left for work, giving child kiss/hug, WAH-MLCer reached for me & gave me a kiss/hug AND gropped my but. What a freakin roller coaster ride from yesterday!!!

Now as of this morning, I believe WAJ-MLCer is having his internal epiphany/connections. He called to let me know about a warrant out for his arrest (some traffic thing) which he said he had taken care of(& now would have to prove), at the same time mentioning that he never can get things right, he drops the ball, etc. & eluding to how the past three years have been this way.

Oh my gosh!!!!!!!
He was reaching out & admitting to what I have been living with for the past 3 years!!!! Hot d@mn!

I kept calm, empathized with him, told him not to worry about the warrant, take care of what needed to be done today that was important first. Then I said "no, you don't drop the ball on everything, you made it this morning & child laughed & had a good time. Plus, you looked good, so you did get something right."

AND

WAH-MLCer suggested blowing off his Monday night activity & maybe we could get dinner. I said go to the activity & maybe we could do drinks after instead, his reply, he would need dinner too. SO, I said okay, but since he paid last time, it would be my treat this time.

What a complete opposite of yesterday........


MariS

"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"

Become the change you want to see.....

Me - 37
WAH - 35
child - 2yrs
Separated - August '06
Married - 10yrs, Together 18
Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08