Journaling...

Can't figure out what I did wrong, but one of MY replies to MY thread did not post yesterday. Hummm.....

WAH-MLCer went to the horseraces last night w/friends. He actually told me his plans & who w, so I was impressed.

He talked about the issue w/the tenant next door where he is living & how the police were out the night before multiple times & how neighbor seems to be mentally unbalanced.

When WAH stopped by yesterday afternoon, before going to meet friends, he wished he had more time to spend with our child & said he was tired & wished he had not already made this prior commitment. Most importantly, he confirmed that he would be by in the morning to take child to school.

SO, I decided to send a txt last night, inviting him to "jockey" over later for rest + benefits. Guess that was pursuing TOO hard, but since we have been intimate three times in the past week, I thought I would do the 180 & intitiate.

Well, naturally, I did not get a reply AND he never showed up or returned my call about taking child to school this morning.

So I am sitting here at work extremely confused, but also worried that WAH is okay.

Now for the extra wrench....WAH-MLCer already agreed to babysit child tonight so I can go out to a friends B-day party AND stay the night at our house (not sure what bedroom) so I don't have to worry about getting up w/child during the night & nursing a hangover in the morning. PLUS, he will take care of the child tomorrow during the day, so I can have one day off for me.

Honestly don't know what to do now. Figure this is part of "that dance" & is a speed bump on this roller coaster ride.

Any suggestions?

MariS

"Going for the Gold & not the Booby prize"

Become the change you want to see.....

Me - 37
WAH - 35
child - 2yrs
Separated - August '06
Married - 10yrs, Together 18
Not feeling WAH's internal struggle - Feb '08