This is all so new to me and I guess I am afraid in some ways that the novelty of being in this new relationship with my Husband of 20 years will wear off and he will leave again.
I prayed for so long to be in this place and I am so grateful to have some normalcy again so why am I having these feelings?
Congratulations!
I have that same fear. I think the only thing we can do is try to be good friends, patient listeners and supportive lovers for our spouses.
In the beginning it does feel kind of like a honeymoon period again, but I figure if we can just move from there into a comfortable, supportive friendship (with some fun spicyness in the intimacy area) hopefully that will be enough to keep things relatively smooth.
In the meantime, just try to live in "the present" and enjoy what is. None of us can predict the future.... so we should love, appreciate and enjoy what we have today.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.