BND, I am so happy for you. Congratulations--you and your family deserve all the happiness int he world.
YOu have fear because it is a natural human reaction to what you have been though. It would be weird if you were not afraid--it would mean you were living in la-la land and not facing the realities of the hard work ahead of you.
My advice would be to embrace and understand your fear as part of the process. Learning as you go to process and deal with it in a poductive way. Do not deny yourself these feelings because that is the surest way to keep them alive.
I'm very proud of how strong you are. You are in inspiration.
