TL and Aud, Thanks so much for posting to me. I guess I really do need to work on me. As far as I can tell, the A is over. H is here with me and our kids. Instead of looking for what is still wrong, why can't I be grateful for what is right? Several months ago I would have given my right arm to be where I am today.
You are right Aud, I have been given a fresh start. Things between us will never be the same, nor do I necessarily want them to be.
A lot of the problem with our lack of intimacy is actually logistics. H gets up at 3:00 a.m. for work, therefore he is usually asleep by 9:00 (if not earlier) - his job is very physically exhausting. Kids also go to bed between 8:30 and 9:00 so we do not have alone time at night. As you may or not know, we are having a heck of a time keeping S5 out of our bed at night. I can bring him back to his room a dozen times a night but he always ends up with us. I work at least 3 nights a week and usually don't get home until after midnight. Anyway, not to bore you all but between work and kids we really can never find 2 minutes to be alone together. I guess I will have to work on that too.
