(((hugs))) We ALL want this but it WILL happen in time. I know you already know this BUT you can not find all of your happiness through your Husband. After the blow of everything that has happened to you I know you want to feel loved and wanted. I know you feel rejected when he doesn't act like he loves you in the way you want him to. I spent many nights sleeping in the same bed as my H and getting a pat on the back or a peck on the cheek and inside I was starving for some affection. One of the things my H also told me that sex is emotional for men it is not just a physical release. Your Husband needs to feel safe again. Try to keep your tongue in check, bite it if you have to. After a little spat I asked my H if we could have make-up sex. He said that we weren't fighting. So I said lets just practice anyways.... These are things I NEVER would have said before. In over 20 years of marriage I am finally feeling liberated and confident enough in myself to be able to speak freely. That is what I have learned from DBing.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
