Hi MamaBear, I have been away for a bit, glad to come by your thread and find you on a happy note. you are doing just fine, I have big ups and downs, we all do! That's just part of it. The big step forward will be if you can own it all, and not put any of it on H. We choose to react (or not) and H is over there just being H. Honestly, they just don't get all of that emotional stuff we do. So I have been working and working on learning to just take it somewhere else. I have made great strides this year (wish H was around more to see it!) but truly I wouldn't have made as much progress if H had been here to blame every time I had a reaction. So who so you want to be? Sex pistol goddess? Sassy but sweet? Brilliant student? Hottest young mama in town? Just keep exploring yourself Mama, and let H keep doing his healing. He is back with you, more every day. Just let him find his own pace, his own rhythm. And you, take the pressure off him and put the eye on the prize (you!) I am rooting for you, Mama
PositivelyListening ************************************** When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller