Quote: I will give up any expectations I have of things between us getting better.
Is it possible for you to just give up expectations in general, be in the moment and choose your thoughts? I am finding that I am much more relaxed when I focus on this. If he calls, fine. If he doesn't, fine. When I start thinking of some way he has hurt me, I choose another thought. Something that makes me FEEL good.
It IS crappy that we have to fight so hard, but it is what it is. Hang in there--time is your ally, and though it seems like you've had way too much, tomorrow will still come. How do you want it to look?