I left note for H that I am done fighting for our M. He doesn't want to talk but has led me to believe that as far as a husband/wife relationship there won't be one.
This is the note he left me "I am here for the family. I'm home early everyday, I don't go out and drink anymore. I love you and I love my kids more than anything in the world. I'm sorry but no I don't have the desire to be with you most times but don't fool yourself you don't have it either and that's how its been for many years. Just because I get in a bad mood somethimes and I'm sorry I didn't care much for the dinner don't get on my case about it."
So there it is in a nutshell I'm sorry but no I don't have the desire to be with you most times but don't fool yourself you don't have it either and that's how its been for many years.
Coming back to this site to work on my R seems kind of useless now. Yes, I'm feeling sorry for myself. I thought that working so hard for the past year would help, clearly it hasn't. If I would have agreed to a divorce when he asked for one last winter I would have already been working on getting over him and building a new life for myself and my kids. Now as it stands it looks like I am trapped in a marriage with a man that no longer wants anything to do with me other than to be a roommate and co-parent.
