So I will just use it to journal my thought so I have something to look back on.
Recently several older men have taken an interest in me where I work. Yesterday, someone at least 25 years older told the bartender that him and his buddies thought I was very pretty. While it was flattering to hear I am not in the least bit interested. There is only man for me and that is my H.
I was thinking; if I were to become single again my options would be older men and not to offend anyone reading this, but I haven't found any of them attractive to me.
Now, I am 5 years older than my H who is in his late 30's. What if that is how he feels about me? What if he is no longer attracted to me physically, especially since OW is 13 years younger than me?
Do I discuss this with him? We haven't ML in a month. I DO NOT want our sex life to go back to they way it was before the bomb but it appears to be doing just that. When he was in the midst of his A in a heated argument with me he yelled that he loves sex, thinks about it everyday and wants it everyday...yet, he doesn't seem to want it with me.
Is continuing this charade of a M a mistake? Is staying together for the sake of the kids wrong? What will happen when the kids are older; will he decide to leave me then? Should I talk to him about this? I want to but will he be honest with me?
Just talking to myself, but if anyone wants to join in that would be great!
