H has really been fantastic. He came straight home from work on Saturday and we spent the entire weekend at home together. Kids had their friends over so they were occupied. We sat around talking and watching TV. H was kind, thoughtful, and sweet yet...we didn't ML .
I don't want our marriage to be like it was preA. Last night I wanted to have the old R talk, again, when we went to bed but he fell right asleep (or pretended to) so the talk was avoided. I went downstairs to write him a note about my dissappointment but for some reason decided not to, probably because I have done it before and nothing came from it. That and the fact that H probably knows things are lacking and doesn't need me to preach it to him.
I know I am being selfish but it is so difficult for me. In my head I imagine that H and OW were doing it every chance they could get so why can't H and I be like that
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