Nothing has really changed. Last week W was very cold. Yesterday she was kind of normal again and invited me over for dinner. Mostly I guess b/c she wanted her mail and me to pick up some stuff. A couple of times she mentioned things I could have gotten upset about but I just dropped it. Not sure if she wanted to see how I react. She acted happy but mentioned a few times that it is 'quiet'.
Later she pulled one of her things again, changed into a nightgown and for a bit not wearing anything right in front of me. Acting very naughty. You might remember she did this stuff before.
Might have been just a check to see if I'm still 'there'.
I'm getting to a point where I don't know what I want, perhaps she can sense this. She seems to be fine, but then I can't look inside. I'm sure about Om2 and I don't see this changing anytime soon. I know it won't last though.
Tomorrow I will go to Germany for a week. Need to get more distance to W. Been out lately a lot w/friends. Met this women again I wrote about a couple of weeks ago.
I'm still sad a lot but getting better. But I'm loosing hope that W will ever come out of this. Somebody please send some patience!
