Nothing major to report today. H has been over to visit the last couple of nights. He’s still distant and looks tired.
I have focused on catching myself in dwelling/worrying thought processes. When they come, I go through my little list of affirmations (H makes fun of my lists, but they’re how I deal with life!). I’m feeling mostly in control of the thoughts now.
He’s gone on a day trip today. There is the possibility that something is going on there, but I am choosing to focus on thoughts that make me feel happy and in control, and that is how I’m feeling. It is what it is regardless of how much attention I give it. To quote TL, "never assume, Clarice". So I won't!
I nailed down a new affirmation that gives me hope: "I am in a happy, fulfilling marriage with a loving, faithful, worthy man." I WILL have that. One way or another.
