Wow. That is some great material for me to work on, and helps to clarify a lot in my mind. GAL and halt of pursuit in progress!
As far as the screaming, my first impressions are: #1-I've taught him that he doesn't have to try (at all) to keep me. #2-One of the first things I need to focus on is learning to control my reactions, to be myself, but not to wear my heart on my sleeve--"biting my tongue" so-to-speak with my body language and mannerisms.
Okay Obi-wan. Not sure if those are the reactions you were looking for...I am open to further instruction.
