I've been doing pretty good at PMA the last week or so...but tonight, I've got this feeling that won't leave me alone.
H seems completely content with our current living arrangement. I have been completely undemanding of his time, help, attention. I am appreciative of what I do get.
During a discussion...probably the last one back in October, H made the statement that he is just an independent guy. He "likes having me around", but it doesn't bother him if I'm not. Same goes for anyone else. He's fine on his own.
So is all my effort wasted? If I don't end up with a man who truly cares about me, who truly wants to be with me, what is all this for? Why am I trying so hard to save something that will never be really appreciated or valued?
