H is still acting distant. He has spent every spare waking minute working on his extra-curricular mechanical project…I am pretty sure there’s nothing OW related going on, but really, I have seen/spoken to him for an average of 15 minutes a day for the last three weeks. Anything could be going on. I’m doing okay at staying positive and focused, but am starting to feel that I need to find out where his head is. I am feeling very much in-the-dark and uneasy.
My biggest worry is that he’s stuffing everything and ignoring the issues prolonging our separation. (Truthfully, I don’t know exactly what his issues are, and I doubt he does either…easier to keep busy than try to figure it out.) I know I can’t pull him out of any of that, but AAAUUUGGGHHH! I don’t want him drifting any further away than he already is! That’s how all of this began in the first place. And I don’t want to be in limbo forever.
He has said before that if I’m worried or don’t know something, to just ask. I DO NOT want to push him away, and have no idea how to approach it. He’s not one to bring ANY of this up. EVER. He’s usually willing to answer specific questions, but I know that if I just never bring any of it up, it never will be addressed. I realize that’s something I have to accept and deal with on my own, but I do feel that some things…like communicating about our CURRENT needs/feelings/etc. need to be resolved before he returns home.
So here’s the big question: Do I ask what’s bothering him? Or do I just keep my mouth shut?
