Tonight just feels empty. He's around, but he's not here. I still have these moments that hit me between the eyes: this is real. All of it, it's not just a bad dream.
I can see D5 trying to interact with her daddy in the same ways I have in the past...ways that don't work. I've got to figure this out before I completely mess her up. Before I completely mess everything up.
I'm doing my best to keep my mouth shut about our R, while trying to be open to him, "just in case" he has an alien pop out of his stomach to share his real feelings. I mean, you never know. GAH.
