I remember the spooning before D was born and the protected comforted feeling of deep sleep; take some comfort in that.
Keep your efforts going or that will dissappear with the first snoring session that disrupts you and you go elsewhere. Lou's togetherness in tenderness approach combined with alternative measures seems so simple on the surface and so unobtainable to some.
{{{hugs}}}
Pity me that the heart is slow to learn
What the swift mind beholds at every turn.
Edna St. Vincent Millay