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I guess I just need to make a clean break. (Ya'll are probably thinking, Halleluia!)

I'm not sure there is such a thing as a "clean" break. Grief is a cyclical process and we all get to through it a little different. It's ok to miss what you have as long as you don't let it stop you from living your life.

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At least I know now that I could be with somene who treated me well, now just need to meet the right one.

So what defines the right one? What is WL looking for? I get a sense that you are questing for a direction your life should go in this.

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At least I'm not blaming anyone anymore. So I'll cut myself some slack,too. Life is really long and I am still quite young. What is the hurry to have everything I want right at this moment?

I've got this problem too. You're not alone on this one. I've read a lot of threads that echo the same sentiment.

Now for thanksgiving... no one should be alone. Don't you have family you could visit? What state do you live in?

Me: 45 W43
S7, Foster S9 (Planning to adopt post divorce)
D mentioned Feb 2015, Wife served 3/24/2015. She moved out 4/15/2015.