I guess I just need to make a clean break. (Ya'll are probably thinking, Halleluia!)
This is probably where he was at over 2 years ago. Well, maybe I'm a slow learner. Anyway, last night's date...good guy, funny, totally into me. Now I find that I'm not attracted to him.
Interesting. I'm obviousely completely messed up. lol! My gfriend is so sweet. She said, no, I just haven't met the right person yet. She's so supportive and optimistic. I love it.
I guess I moved out almost 2 years ago. Started dating a year after that. So, I've been dating now for a year. What's the hurry after living with someone for 8 years?
Well, I'm glad that I've learned how to date. And I've had a chance to see all different kinds of guys out there.
At least I know now that I could be with somene who treated me well, now just need to meet the right one.
I think I'll put the dating on the backburner for awhile.
This guy I went out with last night has invited me to his family's for Thanksgiving, wants to take me on vacation next week... what is wrong with me?
The heart is a strong muscle and has a mind of it's own.
Maybe if I make a clean break and stop looking for someone, instead just start looking to increase the social activities I'm involved in...
At least I'm not blaming anyone anymore. So I'll cut myself some slack,too. Life is really long and I am still quite young. What is the hurry to have everything I want right at this moment?
It doesn't work that way. THese last few years have been so frustrating.
I think this weekend I'll try to get out in nature.
Basically I think he took all his shame and everything he didn't like about himselfand dumped it on men. Humiliating me etc. Now he can be the so cool and sureofhimself guy that he is, and that insecure guy that he was before? He threw it up onto me and then threw us both in the trash.
Please don't beat yourself up. It's okay to feel what you are feeling. You are negating your own feelings here. You are telling yourself you are wrong for feeling this way. Your feelings are very important. It's okay to love someone.
You can't rush the healing. Just feel what you feel and let it out. You need all the time it takes to get over your lose. Give yourself permission. Don't let anyone else tell you how you are supposed to feel. That's not healthy. I'll say a prayer for you, my dear. You will find happiness at the right time. You will find it within yourself.
no offence but I think I am going to work on a new adult cartoon called whitelight. each time you post something new it is hysterical. I have never in my life seen someone so self immersed in themselves. why don't you go and volunteer to hand out food to homeless people in a shelter in your area and see that maybe you have nothing to have a pity party over.let this man go he doesn't want you anymore. give one of the guys you are dating a chance there are people out there who are not like your ex who can make you happy if you just let them in to your self imposed prison.
For your information, I volunteer at a mission giving out food already. Don't care to do it on Thanksgiving because this is the day that all the people with nothing to do come and volunteer, like the people who only go to church on Christmas.
FF, You seem so sure of yourself. Let's look at the things you were wrong about. You were wrong about your wife. You were wrong about RCR's situation. Your negativity feels like poison.
On further thought, I think I have been self-immersed. Because when this all went down, the advice I read was to focus on yourself, not be co-dependent etc. So I tried focusing on myself, no it's not making me happy.
I was not wrong about my wife or RCR and her situation. She will tell you that herself. How she chooses to handle her relationship with sweetheart is up to her.I do think that she is a little over the top when it comes to his games but that is her business. most people would never put up with all of that crap. that man should be kissing her ass and not making her life miserable. as for my wife how was I wrong. I want examples. as for your life I am NOT WRONG. You are a self indulged miserable woman who can only see misery in every situation. much like a spoiled child having a tantrum.why the hell do you post every single detail about things an hour apart from each other.
Let me give you an example.
it is morning and my ex walked by my window wearing a white vintage shirt that I bought him 8 years ago.
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i can not believe he still wears that shirt to go out with his new girlfriend.
next post. for 8 years I washed that shirt and ironed it and now he wears it with her.
next post.how could he be so insensitive and wear that shirt.
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I think he wears that shirt because he still loves me but can not see it, maybe in another 8 years he may come out of his MLC and see that I am the woman of his dreams.
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I have thought about it and the next time he does laundry I am going to steal back that shirt and cut it up, he doesn't deserve that shirt that I bought for him 8 years ago when we were still a couple.
next post. I had a dream about my ex and the white shirt I wonder what it means.
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I have chosen to let him keep the white shirt I bought my ex of 8 years because I am a good and kind and wonderful human being. Kudos to me.
what is wrong with me?
