no offence but I think I am going to work on a new adult cartoon called whitelight. each time you post something new it is hysterical. I have never in my life seen someone so self immersed in themselves. why don't you go and volunteer to hand out food to homeless people in a shelter in your area and see that maybe you have nothing to have a pity party over.let this man go he doesn't want you anymore. give one of the guys you are dating a chance there are people out there who are not like your ex who can make you happy if you just let them in to your self imposed prison.