There's a certain role that I used to play in my old life. One in which I was always there for people and would go unappreciated, unnoticed etc. So, first I didn't want to be a doormat to ex anymore and then it was the family an now the mutual friends.
Part of the break down of my old R was not just between the ex and I but because of the whole system and the role in which I was cast in it.
I'm attempting to Dbust all of these mutual friends now. It's very difficult.
THe only reason I am bothering is because they are calling me. I wish I cuold do this without a fight. Inevitablly when I stand up for myself they get angry.
It's so draining. I shouldn't even have to stand up for myself in the first place. They should just treat me respectfully.
I don't know why they are even calling.
Instead of getting angry each time this happens I tell myself. God is having that happen so that you can stand up for yourself one again. I guess God wants me to learn to love myself and honor myself.
