I GET IT!! Big time. I was so proud of how forgiving and patient I've become the past year, and yet, when I am with H sometimes I want to remind him of how much he hurt me, of all the aspects of it, the 24/7 of child care for over a year, dumped on me, and whatever other UNresolved issues I have.
He is saying the right things, but I get the feeling that he just wants us to move on now, and totally drop the past. Usually, I am okay with that except I really want to know I can trust H again. And for some reason, I guess I just want to know that H "gets" what happened...how crappy it was of him. I am NOT sure that is right and even if it is, I have no control over it.
How can I tell him, without sounding like a jerk, that he doesn't have anymore strikes with me? I mean, if he makes one more of his unilateral choices, I will walk away without looking back. That part is my detachment work and my GAL and I am sure of it. I won't go through this pain again at least not from the same guy. So I guess we have 2 issues: trust and then, plain old anger. I have to work on both...dang.
I thought this would be the easy part. Wrong again. j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
