I would be particularly careful with the drinking. Sure it might temporarily relieve the stress, but it won't resolve it and might make it worse.
I'm no angel myself, but do try to keep a tight lid on my drinking. It clouds your judgement and makes you do things you might regret when you sober up. I especially watch myself when I'm out on a date. I really like to get to know who I'm dating and don't want to end up with sticky relationship issues because I drank to much and threw caution to the wind.
We all stumble from time to time with the begging, pleading, and crying, but it will decrease as time goes on. I'm a year into this and just over the past 3 to 4 months, I'm starting to feel alive and happy again. Aside from time healing the wounds, It's something you can help speed along. You have more control over your emotions than you realize, it's a matter of learning to control them and not base decisions on them.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain