Should I or should I not get involved..7 mos apart

[Astimegoeson]

I've been physically separated from my W for a little longer than you, almost a year. We've been emotionally/sexually separated for about a year and one half. She is the WAW and I'm the LBS. About the same time in my separation (7 months) I had my first sexual encounter with a Woman half my age. This wasn't a whim on my part. This was a premeditated affair on my part. I wanted somebody I wouldn't hurt if by chance I didn't want to continue the affair. I had other boundaries.. not married, not separated, no kids involved, a very independent Woman was what I was looking for. I wanted to make sure this person was as far removed as possible from my family and friends. I didn't want my WAW to find out even though I think/thought She could care less. I didn't want to fall in love and have had my walls up for some time now. My motivation was physical (needy) and my ego was ruling my actions. This Woman was beautiful, intelligent, humorous, outgoing, financially/emotionally independent, with no kids or ex-husbands. Everything I thought I wanted in an affair and more. I've had several affairs/encounters since and all with much younger, unattached Woman. The same profile as my first.

All have been meaningless affairs for me. I have very little emotion afterwards and I sometimes find myself bored with their company. Maybe my WAW pushed me into a MLC myself, I don't know. One thing I know for sure, none of these Woman can make me feel like my W did when we made love.

This giddy feeling your describing sounds very familiar to me, it's the same feeling I had towards my first affair. It is very temporary and will not be a substitute for the one person you really care about, your H. As long as you put it in it's right perspective, it won't hurt you, but if you believe it's going to be some emotional pacifier for you while you await your H return, you may be disappointed.