whatis & SRT.. Thank you for your comments and advice. They are very much appreciated. With the upcomming holiday I have been extremly busy and have had a difficult time finding time to respond. I have signed up for the newsletter and I am enjoying reading it on a daily basis. As my wife makes attempts to turn back toward me, I catch myself now feeling resentment towards her for her actions and realize that this is a normal feeling that I do not need to respond to. The greater difficulty is trusting what she says and does. For example she is now more interested in our finances which I tried to get her interested in the past and when I asked why the sudden interest she stated at first that she needed to watch out for herself. That I was the type of person that would take advantage of her or not put her needs first. I find it difficult filtering the comments that are important with those that have no merit. I need to stop making negative assumptions and let everything just play out. There is nothing gained by negative thinking and the worst case actions played out in my mind of her planning an escape with OM can not be controled by me anyway. She opened up to me last Sunday morning regarding how she felt that I do not share my feelings with her and therefore it makes her feel that I am either not that smart or I am hiding something. Well I am not hiding anything, instead I am working on skills that I do have that have been utilized very little in the past. I don't know about anyone else but this is a very exhausting process. I am recognizing that I look for other peoples words of encourgement to push me forward and now I am being forced to do it on my own. I catch myself allowing her to hurt my self esteem by what she says at times when she is frustrated. I should be stronger within myself, and be able to let those words fall by the wayside. I am disappointed that I am not farther along and I catch myself all to often backsliding and talking about what needs to be done verse actually doing it. I guess I need to keep reminding myself that this is a zig zag line with hills that will take alot of perserverance to move through. I am trying to implement life changes. My W is at a place in life where all she sees is the glass being half full. There is nothing I can do about that except keep focusing on myself and working on GAL and making good permanent changes.
