thanks for the input 121, I really did go off the deep end. I did call warning him to disregard the tm, but all my msgs got there at the same time. Anyways, he actually was concerned and asked me if I was OK, it is so unlike me to go that cucko, so at least he does know I wasn't myself. We had a talk, about what we already talked about before, I am not going to get anything genuine from him w/my desperation, he tells me to relax and that he still has his guard wayyy high because of the manipulation he's experience and actully <gasp> admited he needs to get over it.
Anyways, my head is much clear now, back to work.
...but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.
piecing after separation
